Sometimes I think it rocks and I can make a difference, and other times reality strikes me a like a brick and I feel overwhelmed.

To top it, I just lost a friend in the place. I feel lonely. A shy lonely geek.

It's really weird right now. I'm used to a median state where things are stable, move slowly and time is mostly irrelevant. Whereas right now things are all over the board, with highs when it's a magical moment and lows when I consider... well I'm not even sure what. Luckily the highs win yet it still feels like a race, except I have no idea what I am racing against nor if there's a goal.

So I need to address that. I'm working hard to control one component out of the picture (the workload, which is the easiest to manage overall yet it's infinite at the same time and just generates itself so it's no win-win.)

I think the key is that I need to access my time management technique, which obviously is not adequate anymore and find a new one. That's going to take some time. And energy, which I kind of lack right now. So I surely also need to understand what my goals are and where I want to go. And remove the backlog, which generates its own burden.

In a sense, it's cleanup time. Again.

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There's a bullet in the gun,
there's a fire in your heart,
you will move all mountains that stand in your way.

Good tunes never die :-)

In other news, second anniversary, brunch at the Beach Chalet with Tg, S & C, finished the single missions in StarCraft yesterday and I'm playing with [OpenBSD|OpenBsdTips] this morning.